My feelings are hurt.....

You know you have some people that you would do anything for, but it's like that don't appreciate it. Well, I live with a person like that. My feelings aren't hurt because she doesn't appreciates the things that I do, it's just that I want us to get along when she's not at work. Today she told me that I urk her nerves, but we're not even around each other long enough for that to happen. Meaning, that she enjoys the time that she has away from me, and she hates me the time that we do have together. That makes me not want to say anything to her at all. But I know that that will only irriate her more. I don't know what to do now. She called me a scab, meaning that no matter how much you pick it, it just keeps coming back. That hurt me a lot, but there is no point in telling her that because she wouldn't care what hurt me. My feelings haven't been hurt by herin a long time, but this just goes to show how she really feels about me. That makes me want to start cutting again, but that will only cause more friction that I don't need. I want to cry but I think I cried enough last night. I was crying because I can't believe how stupid I was to actually think that we would celebrate a anniversary that really doesn't exist. Her and I haven't been a couple since about February. I was crying because I am as naive as they get. I was foolish to believe that. I was talking to a friend about what I wanted to do for her on August 2nd, and I was depressed because I can't really do anything special because anything that I would do, I'd be spending her money. I don't have money of my own to do anything. I'm a fucking loser period!